my life.
people i know.
i feel like my summer is going by too fast. it feels as though it was yesterday it was the yearbook signing. and now. school is in two weeks. i feel like everyday is a rush. like i don’t have enough time. i got braces today. i feel like i should of got it done when i was younger. like everyone else. i mean c’mon. who likes a junior and senior with braces?
i saw the movie monte carlo. it was a cute chick flick. it was great seeing all my friends. it was like a break from my fast/crazy life. me and emma and bri chilled at my house and talked. its so funny. i feel like with my clique/group feeling a certain way. and i feel like everyone disagrees with me. and then me em and bri started talking and we all agree with each other. it was nice to be able to release some of my emotions to my friends. i feel like i’ve been holding it in. and then carly came over and we talked some more. its so interesting how all my friends and me don’t really have anything in common. i take bri for instance. we are nothing alike. she is more mature than me. and her opinion is so exact and clear that everything she says just makes complete sense. i mean, i don’t really give people advice, and i’m not as bubbly as her.emma. oh em. she is one of those people that are always like a glow about her. she is always positive. i’m not saying i’m never positive, i just am not always optimistic. plus, she is easy to talk to. same with bri. i don’t think me and my close friend are alike either. me and her have such different styles, but we are alike at the same time. i think carly is down to earth.
in my opinion, Someone who is down to earth will talk to you about problems, not throw plates at your face. a type of person who thinks of more then just themselves. if i talk to carly i know that she will always be honest with me. she’s the type of friend that i can count on. plus we have a love/hate friendship. haha
i am so different from these people but at the same time i’m similar. we just always end up having a great time.
its interesting. i have one friend in that i get along with. its just when i’m with her it feels like a constant competition. and sometimes it can be hard to be friends. but its not always like that. when we hang out, all we do is basically laugh. we get along, but i feel as though i am the only one that thinks this. its hard to explain, i just don’t want to be that type of person who thinks bad about a person. i mean i love this person to death, its just sometimes its just so hard to get along, and i know i’m stubborn i just need to let it go. but sometimes i just want to be right once in awhile. and to not have this constant thing in my life.
i mean. One of my friends kind of had the same thing with her friend. but for me it was a couple of months ago when a similar thing happened. i felt as though she was just trying to find ways to hurt me. and bri was talking about how she had a friend that shares everything with her. and then when she shares little things about herself, she just shreds it. with me. i feel like when i share something its not important. it always feels that way. like i can’t ever put in a word. or if its not approved then i can’t say it. i just feel as though i can’t have my own opinion and share it with certain people. because if they disagree then oh boy its not acceptable. i guess i am just reading to much into it. its just sometimes i just get sick of it. and i just want to punch something. maybe i’m just way to stubborn to admit it. i’m jealous. thats what people keep telling me. i should just admit it. which i do, i mean, its not easy admitting that your jealous. and i know i shouldn’t. because once i’m sucked in to jealousy, it could totally ruin this relationship.
where i’m at.
i basically have a really great life. i mean. there was something my friend said tonight. “it could of been a lot worse.” and she is completely right. so right now. i’m good. i mean braces is huge. and painful. but i mean, i’ll live. plus i’m not alone. i have great friends/family that help me through my life, especially the tough parts :)
